Ridiculous Questions

Say what?!

The most ridiculous question I've been asked ever in my life is , "What are you going to do here?" and this was asked when I walked into a library! I wonder, what does one do when entering a facility like that? I really cannot think of anything one would want to do when entering a library. Hmm… Let me see… I guess I'd enter to feed a baby goat! (And… activate sarcastic voice… now!) Psh! How could you not think of that?!

Seriously now! What do you think I'd want to do?!

I don’t even know how to express the complete and utter shock I went through this afternoon; when out of all the other days I actually felt motivated - very motivated I might add  - to open my notes and study! That happens very rarely especially when my mind is on vacation mode - and even more so, when it would like to stay that way for the rest of the semester break, thank you very much!

I was trying to beat my laziness and lack of motivation to study by just totally immersing myself in a new place that was supposedly built to foster a healthy study environment - which may be considered a good thing.

I consider it a good thing! You spot that you need to change and you actually put in effort to change it - a very good thing!

Although the librarians did let me in, it wasn't after throwing me unnecessary questions about what I was going to do and what I was going to do it for -  which is for a licensee exam, just so you know. Wish me luck!

Is it so unbelievable to hear that someone actually wants to study nowadays?

Let's Get It! Let's Go!

A/N: This is listed randomly only because I'm not sure where I want to go to first and which places I want to visit the most.

Just a little list of places I want to visit ASAP!

Italy, to be more specific, Rome and Florence.

Paris, France.

Scotland and England or to put it simply, Europe!

Ever since I was little I have always wanted a Euro trip! (Hey Pen if you're reading this! We used to talk about it a lot! I'm not sure if you remember though...)
I mean, who wouldn't?! Its one of the most beautiful places in the world, culturally and architecturally and all the other possible '-lly' words that I can't think of to explain just how majestic the place seems to be to me. Just the idea is breath taking!

            

I want to visit the Eiffel Tower in Paris, France and go to the top both in the morning, so I could get a good look at the city and the evening, to look at all the pretty lights and to look back down at the ant sized people going through their daily routine.

Another place I'd love to visit is Stirling Castle in Scotland. The whole Victorian era (although I'm not sure what era Stirling Castle is from) still continues to fascinate me, especially their life of luxury.  The large Castles with dozens and dozens of rooms and their love for fashion makes me want to time travel just to experience what it was like to live in a time I almost wish I was born in.

Japan! Japan! And other Asian countries!

I don't even know where to begin when it comes to places in Asia  that I wanna visit! There just seems to be more and more places that is being added onto my list.

Although this isn't really a place in Japan, I want to see Cherry Blossoms!

Nuff said! :D They are just too pretty!

I want to experience crossing at Shibuya and the night life at Shinjuku.

Neon lights at Shinjuku

Cross road at Shibuya

                            

And after all that I would love to go shopping at Harajuku! The list could go on for ever and I didn't even start on the extreme sports I want to try! I guess I could just update this post again! Where do you want to go? Tell me at the comments below! (That rhymed!)

Frose/Clor: So close yet so far

That feeling/moment when you're dangling off the side of the cliff and the grip a person has on you is slowly slipping and they eventually drop you. 

Imagine it!

Yea.

That feeling.

Let it sink in.

Feel it.

Breathe it.

Exhale!

Not such a great feeling is it?!

Before that moment you're not sure what to do.  It doesn't sink in just yet.  You are blinded by your assumption that miracles happen - well they don’t! 

And when it is happening, you're confused and wind struck, not sure if you should start begging or just let what ever happen.

It just sucks that you played fair and yet you didn’t get the reward you anticipated.

And! That’s not the end of it but it just has to taunt you, rub it in your face and make you feel good but not great enough to get it.

Sometimes I wish people would have some sort of consideration about other people and how their actions would affect the outlook of people towards them. 

Sometimes getting what ever you want no matter how you get it sucks! Know that! It just shows how lowly you can act. Not such a great move.

I don’t know how to end this. 

Right now, life just… sucks!

A/N: This feels more like an online diary rather than a blog. Oh well! 

I didn’t want to post a rant or anything depressing or angry or something that was fueled by too much personal emotions but I just couldn't take it! It just feels too unfair! :(
BTW Frose/Clor is just a word I made up using close and far :D Just thought you should know :)

Bato bato sa langit, ang tamaan… matatamaan!

Addicted and Thinking About Forever

I’ve been thinkin’ ’bout you
Do you think about me still?
Do ya, do ya?
Or do you not think so far ahead? (Ahead)
‘Cause I been thinkin’ ’bout forever (Oooh, oooh)
No, I don’t like you, I just thought you were cool
Enough to kick it
Got a beach house I could sell you in Idaho
Since you think I don’t love you, I just thought you were cute
That’s why I kiss you
Got a fighter jet, I don’t get fly it, though

I can’t just get enough of this song its almost driving me crazy!

I love her voice! I wish I could sing like she does! Oh well, I can only wish! I need a miracle before its gonna happen!

Just the 411

I just realized I never explained why I call my blog In-Site: The Real Deal.  Well I have a photography portfolio (here's the link if you want to visit it http://niksdelacruz.webs.com/) and well its also called In-Site and that along with this sort of blog aims to show all my readers/viewers or whom ever an In-Sight to my brain and just my random thoughts.  Well that's about it :D


Yea.. like I said in my portfolio lame pun. I know. I know.
Don't judge though!
I thought it was a good idea at one point in my life :P

The Jump

A/N: I was trying to make something in first person and put you in a situation. I'm not sure if I succeeded or not, but here goes anyway :) Comments would be appreciated and loved <3 So.... Tell me watcha think! :)

One step.

Two steps.

Three steps.

I ran like there was no tomorrow.

Inhale.

Exhale.

I took a deep breath, feeling the wind in my hair, the harsh sun in my face.

I looked at the scene quickly passing before me.

Green. Brown. Blue.

Trees. Sand. Sky and water.

I stopped.

Just before I reached the end of the cliff.

My heart pounded in my chest and I looked at the waters below me.

It was a deep ocean blue color.

The waves crashed angrily against the cliff side and I inhaled deeply again.

My nostrils were filled with the scent of the ocean - that distinct smell . A little salty.

I missed the feeling it gave me.

Freedom.  Varying happiness and melancholy.

I backed up a few steps; changing my mind for a second, but I pushed it away.

There was this strong pull from the waves that didn’t stop crashing on the rocks beneath me.

I needed this.

I heard the muted voices of my friends calling my name so I backed up and ran.

And when I didn't know it was in me, I jumped!

I felt the ground leave my feet and I was in the air.

I felt the wind in my hair, surrounding me, its scent engulfing me, carrying me over the water.

I moved my body into a dive and I inhaled, filling my lungs until I couldn’t take in anymore.

I just stared at the clear water that was getting clearer and clearer the closer I got to the water with the beat of my heart strongly pounding in my chest.

Then it happened.

I felt it.

My hands quickly pierced through the surface of the water;

cooling my face, torso then swallowing me whole.

I felt fresher, lighter, as it surrounded my heated and excited body.

I relaxed and let myself sink deeper and deeper and deeper.

I closed my eyes to just... feel.

I let the waves rock me, almost lulling me to sleep;

maybe I was just running out of oxygen, I didn’t know.

Feeling light headed and the harsh burn in my lungs, I rushed to the surface of the water and broke free.

I sat up breathing heavily.

I panicked and quickly gulped down air, filling my deprived lungs. 

I was panting like I just ran a marathon. 

I was breathing hard like I did something extreme, like I  went cliff diving.

I looked around then realized where I was.

I smiled to my self and fell back onto my bed once again.

It was all a dream. 

Indie-mand!

Cinemalaya is just around the corner movie junkies! Don't worry if you don't know or aren't sure what its about, I'll give you the 411! Its an annual film festival in the Philippines that is supposed to "encourage the creation of new cinematic works by Filipino filmmakers".

Let's get down and dirty! Why did I talk about Cinemalaya you ask? Well, the competition brings me to the topic about (what is in my opinion) the 2nd rate, commercialized, generalized and all-the-other-ized words (you can think of) Philippine movies that claim their spot in today's limelight.

The actors are actresses are all the same people; which can be sickening to the eyes.  I mean, come on! The last role they played is still stuck in your head and here they are again acting the same as they did in their last role, just in a different movie!

They have all the same corny plots - I bet you I could tell you about the whole movie from start to end if I watch the first 5 minutes or less! - and they can't pull it off like other Asian movies.

They reuse the same corny plots.  Who funds all these movies? Who produces them? Seriously?! You didn't think having the nth part in the movie - that was just released last year - was enough? So you had to release an addition?! Even if we did love it the last 10 times, it doesn't mean it has to keep going on in the same manner! Story lines have to die too someday to create room for new ones! QUIT WASTING MONEY PEOPLE! Donate to charity or something! At least that way it would be more productive.There are so many indie movies that are so worth watching. I just don't understand how people decide to waste their money on the same movie done 10 different ways, released 100 times over. 

Watching the trailers/entries for Cinemalaya 8 just made me remember the reasons why I got into Filipino movies/television series in the first place.  They had good actors, they had stories to tell and could tell it in creative ways!  Indie movies used talents unknown to the masses but could convey the message of the movie just fine! It just bothers me so much that they are so under appreciated in so many different levels.

Wake up and smell the money burning, baby! The standard of the movie business just declined!