Ridiculous Questions

Say what?!

The most ridiculous question I've been asked ever in my life is , "What are you going to do here?" and this was asked when I walked into a library! I wonder, what does one do when entering a facility like that? I really cannot think of anything one would want to do when entering a library. Hmm… Let me see… I guess I'd enter to feed a baby goat! (And… activate sarcastic voice… now!) Psh! How could you not think of that?!

Seriously now! What do you think I'd want to do?!

I don’t even know how to express the complete and utter shock I went through this afternoon; when out of all the other days I actually felt motivated - very motivated I might add  - to open my notes and study! That happens very rarely especially when my mind is on vacation mode - and even more so, when it would like to stay that way for the rest of the semester break, thank you very much!

I was trying to beat my laziness and lack of motivation to study by just totally immersing myself in a new place that was supposedly built to foster a healthy study environment - which may be considered a good thing.

I consider it a good thing! You spot that you need to change and you actually put in effort to change it - a very good thing!

Although the librarians did let me in, it wasn't after throwing me unnecessary questions about what I was going to do and what I was going to do it for -  which is for a licensee exam, just so you know. Wish me luck!

Is it so unbelievable to hear that someone actually wants to study nowadays?

Frose/Clor: So close yet so far

That feeling/moment when you're dangling off the side of the cliff and the grip a person has on you is slowly slipping and they eventually drop you. 

Imagine it!

Yea.

That feeling.

Let it sink in.

Feel it.

Breathe it.

Exhale!

Not such a great feeling is it?!

Before that moment you're not sure what to do.  It doesn't sink in just yet.  You are blinded by your assumption that miracles happen - well they don’t! 

And when it is happening, you're confused and wind struck, not sure if you should start begging or just let what ever happen.

It just sucks that you played fair and yet you didn’t get the reward you anticipated.

And! That’s not the end of it but it just has to taunt you, rub it in your face and make you feel good but not great enough to get it.

Sometimes I wish people would have some sort of consideration about other people and how their actions would affect the outlook of people towards them. 

Sometimes getting what ever you want no matter how you get it sucks! Know that! It just shows how lowly you can act. Not such a great move.

I don’t know how to end this. 

Right now, life just… sucks!

A/N: This feels more like an online diary rather than a blog. Oh well! 

I didn’t want to post a rant or anything depressing or angry or something that was fueled by too much personal emotions but I just couldn't take it! It just feels too unfair! :(
BTW Frose/Clor is just a word I made up using close and far :D Just thought you should know :)

Bato bato sa langit, ang tamaan… matatamaan!